A bit late, but happy new year anyway!!!
Well, since my last post, things have been interesting.. I got angry at my mother. VERY angry. There is a good thing to that though- God enabled me to release that anger. I felt it, told Him about it, & visualized giving it to Him. Once I gave it over to God, I was able to release that once & for all. Releasing that anger has enabled me to be so much more peaceful & relaxed. The anxiety I've experienced so long is all but gone now. And, when I had to deal with my mother, I was able to avoid playing her negative, controlling games. It felt GREAT! (Mind you, she hadn't spoken to me in months before this past Wednesday.) I also have been able to lose myself in the little pleasures of life- warm showers, beautiful birds in the backyard, the crackle & scent of the fireplace. The little things truly are the big things.. the things that bring the most pleasure! :)
Thanks so much for sharing this. I am going through anger with my mother right now. She is manipulative and controlling and I've reached the point where I've had enough. I'm going to forgive her but I am also going to establish healthy boundaries and move on with my life. Your site and blog have been helpful and encouraging on this journey. God bless.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for taking so long to respond- people emailed saying they couldn't reply- I had no idea it was fixed. Sorry!!
ReplyDeleteAnyway I am so sorry you're experiencing this. It's a rough road for sure, but you can get through this with God's help. You're probably going to find you get angry, forgive, feel hurt, confused & other emotions- this process is truly a roller coaster. I've found a wonderful group on facebook called "Daughters Of Narcissistic Mothers" that is full of fantastic ladies.. if you're on facebook, you might want to look them up. (The group is secure- only members can see who posts in it)
And, thank you so much for your kind words about my site & blog.. I'm glad they're helping you! God bless you!!